i've started to pray
to the toilets of public bathrooms again.
on busses & on trains travelers
can watch me turn dizzy, faint, or,
even better, turn ghostly
like a grandfather.
i've been buying travel tickets
to my brothers again.
lately in my dreams they did not die,
they never died.
there was a joint funeral
& my parents hired a soul singer
to perform cover songs of elliott smith
& i stood still as ash, doing my best
to rip open my face & my palms
& my wrists.
that day was the first day in a week
that i did not eat,
that i did not make myself *****
in dreams my brothers did not die,
but i still wait for their funeral.
my hands are roads again, or wheels,
all marked & nailed & bruised.
if you turn me into a river
then i will share my secrets with you.
Jul 21, 2014
Jul 21, 2014 at 4:31 PM UTC
i've started to pray
to the toilets of public bathrooms again.
on busses & on trains travelers
can watch me turn dizzy, faint, or,
even better, turn ghostly
like a grandfather.
i've been buying travel tickets
to my brothers again.
lately in my dreams they did not die,
they never died.
there was a joint funeral
& my parents hired a soul singer
to perform cover songs of elliott smith
& i stood still as ash, doing my best
to rip open my face & my palms
& my wrists.
that day was the first day in a week
that i did not eat,
that i did not make myself *****
in dreams my brothers did not die,
but i still wait for their funeral.
my hands are roads again, or wheels,
all marked & nailed & bruised.
if you turn me into a river
then i will share my secrets with you.
