I want to fight you
and never close my eyes
for I’m afraid when I do
I will find the memories
of which I can’t let go
I’ll relive all he is
all I was beside him
To wake from this
desperately grasping to find
his heartbeat
feeling it as nothing more
than a pillow between
my trembling white knuckles
Knowing it was just a dream
Is to relive the relentless ache
of losing him all over again
May 5, 2014
May 5, 2014 at 12:20 AM UTC
I want to fight you
and never close my eyes
for I’m afraid when I do
I will find the memories
of which I can’t let go
I’ll relive all he is
all I was beside him
To wake from this
desperately grasping to find
his heartbeat
feeling it as nothing more
than a pillow between
my trembling white knuckles
Knowing it was just a dream
Is to relive the relentless ache
of losing him all over again
