for a while I've been confused---
lots of hours spent detangling
my hair in the shower, wondering
if I should sit down or stand up or
lean, wondering how *it is possible
to be sort of sad or kind of not really
sad*. I've always had problems with
letting go and I told my mom *I haven't
tried with anyone because I don't like
feeling that way* I don't like the strange
jealousies that come with falling for a face
but the truth is, it's all about chris and it
has been for months now. Because loving
him is loving an old-self, because loving him
is loving an old-self, because who I love isn't
there? And who he loved isn't here (maybe I'm
just saying that) but there have been lots of hours
spent detangling my hair in the shower wondering
if I should sit down or stand up. Lots of hours.
Apr 1, 2014
Apr 1, 2014 at 3:19 PM UTC
for a while I've been confused---
lots of hours spent detangling
my hair in the shower, wondering
if I should sit down or stand up or
lean, wondering how *it is possible
to be sort of sad or kind of not really
sad*. I've always had problems with
letting go and I told my mom *I haven't
tried with anyone because I don't like
feeling that way* I don't like the strange
jealousies that come with falling for a face
but the truth is, it's all about chris and it
has been for months now. Because loving
him is loving an old-self, because loving him
is loving an old-self, because who I love isn't
there? And who he loved isn't here (maybe I'm
just saying that) but there have been lots of hours
spent detangling my hair in the shower wondering
if I should sit down or stand up. Lots of hours.
(c) Brooke Otto 2014
I haven't wanted to write this down.
