I was once beautiful
I was once free
Then you came
And took that from me
You said you loved me
And I was believer
Turns out I didn't see
That you were a deceiver
But the problem lies
That I've fallen for you
And I cannot deny
How I wish you loved me too
So now I am broken and lost
Running after you asking why
You turned this heart to frost
And just walked by
Me everyday, every moment
Joking with me as if I am meaningless
Keeping yourself on check--but you are no sant
–And I am not innocent–
Though the more and more I run
To convince you that it is not about the love--lack--but about why you did what you did to me knowingly that I will take it as you loved me
The more I seem desperate
The more I seem crazy
The more I lose my colors
The more I betray myself
And the less I seem like myself the
More you distance yourself from me
All because I want to know why
That merely makes my pain greater
Makes me despise myself more
For not being able to let it go.
I wonder why I do this
Why I try
But I am not like you
I cannot lie
So I love you
And you know
And I shame you
For hurting me so
And I forgive you
For leading me to this state
But I won't recover--don't ask me--it is too late.
Because:
I was once beautiful
I was once free
Then you came
And took all that from me.
Mar 18, 2014
Mar 18, 2014 at 11:08 AM UTC
I was once beautiful
I was once free
Then you came
And took that from me
You said you loved me
And I was believer
Turns out I didn't see
That you were a deceiver
But the problem lies
That I've fallen for you
And I cannot deny
How I wish you loved me too
So now I am broken and lost
Running after you asking why
You turned this heart to frost
And just walked by
Me everyday, every moment
Joking with me as if I am meaningless
Keeping yourself on check--but you are no sant
–And I am not innocent–
Though the more and more I run
To convince you that it is not about the love--lack--but about why you did what you did to me knowingly that I will take it as you loved me
The more I seem desperate
The more I seem crazy
The more I lose my colors
The more I betray myself
And the less I seem like myself the
More you distance yourself from me
All because I want to know why
That merely makes my pain greater
Makes me despise myself more
For not being able to let it go.
I wonder why I do this
Why I try
But I am not like you
I cannot lie
So I love you
And you know
And I shame you
For hurting me so
And I forgive you
For leading me to this state
But I won't recover--don't ask me--it is too late.
Because:
I was once beautiful
I was once free
Then you came
And took all that from me.
Credits to Starseekeer.
