Everywhere I go
people seem to follow.
They’re just sitting there.
Watching,
Waiting for me to slip up.
For most people
it has to be done a few times.
But for me,
it’s that first hit that gets me hooked-
That one taste,
that seals my fate.
It seems no matter how hard I try
the urge overwhelms and consumes me-
Like a beast in the night
showing no mercy towards its blind prey.
It’s just that every time I plan something,
every time I try to do something for my family,
it all turns wrong.
Not because I was unable to
but because I slipped up.
I slipped up.
I should have walked away
when I saw them light up that first cigar.
I should have said “No”.
But instead I sat there and lit up my fate-
Gave up my life.
I’d be a miracle if my family forgave me.
I’ve put them through so much pain,
and I just want to say,
“I’M SORRY!”
“I’M SORRY!”
I wish I could do it all over-
take the better path.
I suppose I shouldn’t live my life
dwelling in the past.
My mother always told me,
“Live life in the present
for the past has passed.”
I didn’t understand what she meant at first,
but now my eyes are open to all of life’s treasures.
Life is always changing-
And it’s never too late for that!
NEVER!
Feb 13, 2014
Feb 13, 2014 at 8:57 AM UTC
Everywhere I go
people seem to follow.
They’re just sitting there.
Watching,
Waiting for me to slip up.
For most people
it has to be done a few times.
But for me,
it’s that first hit that gets me hooked-
That one taste,
that seals my fate.
It seems no matter how hard I try
the urge overwhelms and consumes me-
Like a beast in the night
showing no mercy towards its blind prey.
It’s just that every time I plan something,
every time I try to do something for my family,
it all turns wrong.
Not because I was unable to
but because I slipped up.
I slipped up.
I should have walked away
when I saw them light up that first cigar.
I should have said “No”.
But instead I sat there and lit up my fate-
Gave up my life.
I’d be a miracle if my family forgave me.
I’ve put them through so much pain,
and I just want to say,
“I’M SORRY!”
“I’M SORRY!”
I wish I could do it all over-
take the better path.
I suppose I shouldn’t live my life
dwelling in the past.
My mother always told me,
“Live life in the present
for the past has passed.”
I didn’t understand what she meant at first,
but now my eyes are open to all of life’s treasures.
Life is always changing-
And it’s never too late for that!
NEVER!
This poem was inspired by the struggle someone most dear to me has overcome. The urge can be tempting...but dangerous.
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