*standing still
feet glued to a floor that’s falling through
destined for destruction
your eyes glass over
you turn your head away
you don’t see me
you release me
from your gentle grasp
a cinderblock
falls on my chest
crushes me
i can’t breathe
all hope is lost
but
right before
i flat line
my lungs fill with air
my heart begins to beat
you rescue me
for a second
i’m weightless
i’m safe
time passes
seconds are short
and you remember
our little
emotionless game
the cinderblock
comes flying at my head
how did i
ever
feel safe
he loves me
he loves me not
it’s like picking petals off a dead rose
leaving everything to chance
throwing a dice
and hoping it lands on the side you desire
you wrap me in your arms
yet i still feel
miles away from you
love
anger
sadness
envelope my mind
sending my thoughts into a whirlwind
of crazy emotion
drowning
in the tears
that escape through the cracks
of the glassy walls
that you constantly break down
i’m naked
you see through me
no secrets
nothing just for my mind to know
my body
my eyes
scream every thought
i desperately
want to keep inside
i tell myself
be strong
protect yourself
with the glassy eyed distance
with which he drives you insane
failure must be my strong suit
‘cause having strength
when i’m with you--
impossible*
Feb 2, 2014
Feb 2, 2014 at 6:30 PM UTC
*standing still
feet glued to a floor that’s falling through
destined for destruction
your eyes glass over
you turn your head away
you don’t see me
you release me
from your gentle grasp
a cinderblock
falls on my chest
crushes me
i can’t breathe
all hope is lost
but
right before
i flat line
my lungs fill with air
my heart begins to beat
you rescue me
for a second
i’m weightless
i’m safe
time passes
seconds are short
and you remember
our little
emotionless game
the cinderblock
comes flying at my head
how did i
ever
feel safe
he loves me
he loves me not
it’s like picking petals off a dead rose
leaving everything to chance
throwing a dice
and hoping it lands on the side you desire
you wrap me in your arms
yet i still feel
miles away from you
love
anger
sadness
envelope my mind
sending my thoughts into a whirlwind
of crazy emotion
drowning
in the tears
that escape through the cracks
of the glassy walls
that you constantly break down
i’m naked
you see through me
no secrets
nothing just for my mind to know
my body
my eyes
scream every thought
i desperately
want to keep inside
i tell myself
be strong
protect yourself
with the glassy eyed distance
with which he drives you insane
failure must be my strong suit
‘cause having strength
when i’m with you--
impossible*
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