Cursor. Stare vacantly back at me. A pair of rough hands scrape against cheeks. My own.
A faint yet familiar soreness in the back of the throat.
Christmas lights procure rings of color on the walls and make still for an instant
mounting apprehension.
Count the days.
Recount.
Plan each day, hour by hour. Compelled to use them to their fullest potential.
Productivity.
Type without fear. Without concern for that looming pair of eyes to examine this.
A verbalization of [my own dark thoughts] “It’s not good enough.” “ It’s garbage."
Jagged hands. Jagged hands to delicate hairs on the back of the neck. Above ear and pushed from forehead. Soreness in throat keeps me [grounded].
Soreness in heart sends me to dream.
Soft groan escapes a pair of lips as a pair of eyes find a likeness captured in pixels.
Close it shut put it down look away deep breath in.
Distract.
Distract with learning.
The inextinguishable desire to know, to see, to understand [this]
existence.
Will one day I allow for eyes not my own to bear witness to this love poem?
This love poem to life, both in a particular and universal sense.
With timid hands and trembling insides I surrender
my words.
Feb 1, 2014
Feb 1, 2014 at 11:20 PM UTC
Cursor. Stare vacantly back at me. A pair of rough hands scrape against cheeks. My own.
A faint yet familiar soreness in the back of the throat.
Christmas lights procure rings of color on the walls and make still for an instant
mounting apprehension.
Count the days.
Recount.
Plan each day, hour by hour. Compelled to use them to their fullest potential.
Productivity.
Type without fear. Without concern for that looming pair of eyes to examine this.
A verbalization of [my own dark thoughts] “It’s not good enough.” “ It’s garbage."
Jagged hands. Jagged hands to delicate hairs on the back of the neck. Above ear and pushed from forehead. Soreness in throat keeps me [grounded].
Soreness in heart sends me to dream.
Soft groan escapes a pair of lips as a pair of eyes find a likeness captured in pixels.
Close it shut put it down look away deep breath in.
Distract.
Distract with learning.
The inextinguishable desire to know, to see, to understand [this]
existence.
Will one day I allow for eyes not my own to bear witness to this love poem?
This love poem to life, both in a particular and universal sense.
With timid hands and trembling insides I surrender
my words.
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