can you live in fear and still be strong?

aq450863 Poems

I'm scared of so many things right now. Like if I'm making the right decision about my future: Am I independent enough to leave my home and seek adventure? What if I'm not living out my life to the fullest? I don't want to regret these years but I can't seem to change myself. Am I just as bad as what I complain about? I'm terrified that I am my biggest pet peeve and that I will never be able to escape myself. I'm scared that my newfound anger isn't just a phase. And how am I supposed to overcome my problems if I instinctively shut them out before I have the chance to try? I'm scared that second chances don't exist and fear that I've ****** up the only one I get. I worry that true happiness will never come to me again but I know I'm probably just being overdramatic. I'm terrified that I'm wrong about her and that I will be too late to do any saving. I know she doesn't want to be saved but I still fear she'll choose death over us. I fear that I'm wrong about everything. I'm scared that nobody cares. I'm terrified of being lonely.