i put on my sweatshirt, yoga pants, tennis shoes,
and said, "I think i'll go for a jog."
And I left. I ran down the driveway
I jogged round the turn,
I passed, on my way down the road,
a collar.
Pink, purple and small.
I took a break. Walked it off
That lost collar means a lost pet.
that lost collar might mean a lost kid.
I brushed it off.
Running across the bridge, I
told myself i couldn't stop, or
The eyes behind windshields would stare.
would realize im nothing.
I took the path along the river.
It was noticeably full and wide.
a dark, River green.
the current was strong and I
Followed it with the path
until i coudnt breathe. And
I told myself to get a rusty fishhook
carve my failure into my skin.
I told myself to ****
To **** myself.
To jump in the winter river,
to leap too far into the hypothermic current
to come back.
I sat on the edge for too long.
I went back home.
Jan 21, 2014
Jan 21, 2014 at 2:35 AM UTC
i put on my sweatshirt, yoga pants, tennis shoes,
and said, "I think i'll go for a jog."
And I left. I ran down the driveway
I jogged round the turn,
I passed, on my way down the road,
a collar.
Pink, purple and small.
I took a break. Walked it off
That lost collar means a lost pet.
that lost collar might mean a lost kid.
I brushed it off.
Running across the bridge, I
told myself i couldn't stop, or
The eyes behind windshields would stare.
would realize im nothing.
I took the path along the river.
It was noticeably full and wide.
a dark, River green.
the current was strong and I
Followed it with the path
until i coudnt breathe. And
I told myself to get a rusty fishhook
carve my failure into my skin.
I told myself to ****
To **** myself.
To jump in the winter river,
to leap too far into the hypothermic current
to come back.
I sat on the edge for too long.
I went back home.
