*Five months ago
things didn't seem
to matter,
this spiral
I've crashed down
into was my
every day norm.
Five months ago
I'd allow myself to
be talked to
any type of way,
find comfort
in your
taunts
lies
games
and
******
fulfillment
since
I thought
five months ago
he would change,
I praised myself for
being in a
toxic relationship
& staying strong,
thought
I'd be weak if I left.
Five
months
ago
I thought
I needed
you,
thought that
I was your soul catcher
the one meant to
protect & support your tyrant ways.
Five
months
ago
I'd listen to
you & follow
your lead,
pray for us
prayed for me,
the answer came
when I felt lies welling up
constantly
drowning on em choking from
them swimming deep
like sharks attacking
me over & over
I five months ago
felt the magnitude of betrayal
felt what I thought was
my world caving in,
hurt me with your
words then love me
in bed so slowly,
I laid there most times
thinking what the ****
am
I doing here-
then
you'd make
my body react,
make me feel so good,
five months ago I'd let you.
Let you control and demand things
from me more of myself
to where
I had barley anything left to give.
I'm grieving a loss
that's easily mending,
Five months
I'd of begged
even pleaded,
Five months ago
I'd of ran into those
strong open arms,
now
I've recapture
the woman
I wish to become
the woman
I'm working on.
How's it
I've allowed you so
much authority
over me & courtesies
of my life,
I made you boss
and
I like the luggage & baggage
I still carry,
you where the one
playing with my strings
the puppet- your dummy
a fowl fool
I've been
but that's
no longer
relevant
since
that was
FIVE Months Ago!*
Always Me Ayeshah ®
Copyright 1977 - Present ©
K.A.C.L.N ©
All right reserved ®
Jan 17, 2014
Jan 17, 2014 at 6:41 PM UTC
*Five months ago
things didn't seem
to matter,
this spiral
I've crashed down
into was my
every day norm.
Five months ago
I'd allow myself to
be talked to
any type of way,
find comfort
in your
taunts
lies
games
and
******
fulfillment
since
I thought
five months ago
he would change,
I praised myself for
being in a
toxic relationship
& staying strong,
thought
I'd be weak if I left.
Five
months
ago
I thought
I needed
you,
thought that
I was your soul catcher
the one meant to
protect & support your tyrant ways.
Five
months
ago
I'd listen to
you & follow
your lead,
pray for us
prayed for me,
the answer came
when I felt lies welling up
constantly
drowning on em choking from
them swimming deep
like sharks attacking
me over & over
I five months ago
felt the magnitude of betrayal
felt what I thought was
my world caving in,
hurt me with your
words then love me
in bed so slowly,
I laid there most times
thinking what the ****
am
I doing here-
then
you'd make
my body react,
make me feel so good,
five months ago I'd let you.
Let you control and demand things
from me more of myself
to where
I had barley anything left to give.
I'm grieving a loss
that's easily mending,
Five months
I'd of begged
even pleaded,
Five months ago
I'd of ran into those
strong open arms,
now
I've recapture
the woman
I wish to become
the woman
I'm working on.
How's it
I've allowed you so
much authority
over me & courtesies
of my life,
I made you boss
and
I like the luggage & baggage
I still carry,
you where the one
playing with my strings
the puppet- your dummy
a fowl fool
I've been
but that's
no longer
relevant
since
that was
FIVE Months Ago!*
Always Me Ayeshah ®
Copyright 1977 - Present ©
K.A.C.L.N ©
All right reserved ®
just thinking out loud.... therapeutic.............
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