1/8/14
my hands will shake as i write this
mostly because of the nicotine
but also because
they miss yours
my head will spin as i write this
mostly because of the nicotine
but also because
i feel alone
lighting a cigarette now has a different meaning
am i smoking to ease my pain?
am i smoking to ease the loneliness?
not anymore
cigarettes have become nicotine packed promises
im promised to miss you even more
im promised to feel it in my head
in my hands
in my legs
in my chest
the smoke that escapes my lips is no longer my troubles leaving me
im promised to feel worse after this
the smoke is like a signature
lighting it is almost me writing out a contract
the cigarette is a promise
i give consent to feeling worse
the smoke signs it for me
because my hands are trembling
Jan 9, 2014
Jan 9, 2014 at 7:41 AM UTC
1/8/14
my hands will shake as i write this
mostly because of the nicotine
but also because
they miss yours
my head will spin as i write this
mostly because of the nicotine
but also because
i feel alone
lighting a cigarette now has a different meaning
am i smoking to ease my pain?
am i smoking to ease the loneliness?
not anymore
cigarettes have become nicotine packed promises
im promised to miss you even more
im promised to feel it in my head
in my hands
in my legs
in my chest
the smoke that escapes my lips is no longer my troubles leaving me
im promised to feel worse after this
the smoke is like a signature
lighting it is almost me writing out a contract
the cigarette is a promise
i give consent to feeling worse
the smoke signs it for me
because my hands are trembling
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