What's Happening?

caitlin-driscoll Poems

I don’t know where to write this So you won’t find it I just want you to love me I’m so angry and sad that my tears are violent And hot And hurt And I want to change And fix me And be worth loving But I don’t blame you I’m not worth loving I’m shaking And breathing heavy Oh my God what’s happening to me? My lungs feel like they’re being crushed My heart feels like it’s trying to rip right out of my chest to escape this dungeon that is me What have I become I’m harmless And harmful And full of rage And full of love You don’t understand You’ll never understand And I can’t make you But I sure wish you could I want to scream But I lost all sensation in my spur of bewilderment It got ****** away in a black hole of existentialism the other day And I just couldn’t bring myself to run after it So I let the last tear I cried roll down my cheek Blinked Sighed And fell asleep goodnight