It’s only now that I notice
the toxic chemicals hidden within our love.
Like drugs, they keep pulling me back
every time I try to leave you behind.
You have me addicted to you,
and I hate how safe you make me feel.
Whenever I talk to you,
every inconsolable thought disappears
like my sadness never existed.
You once drove a knife into my heart,
yet patched the wound so gently
that I still chose to love you anyway.
You saved me.
You comforted me.
And somehow you did all of that
through a **** screen.
But I don’t want words anymore.
I want you to hold me.
I want you to stay,
even though I know I won’t always have you.
We’re just kids,
and I’m tired of falling in love
with the right people
at the wrong time.
Every person I’ve ever loved
has ended with the knife.
The knife always wins,
and my heart is always the thing left bleeding.
Still, those toxic chemicals pull me back,
and the cycle continues
while I stand in the middle of it,
still not knowing how to stop.
May 27
May 27, 2026 at 9:49 PM UTC
It’s only now that I notice
the toxic chemicals hidden within our love.
Like drugs, they keep pulling me back
every time I try to leave you behind.
You have me addicted to you,
and I hate how safe you make me feel.
Whenever I talk to you,
every inconsolable thought disappears
like my sadness never existed.
You once drove a knife into my heart,
yet patched the wound so gently
that I still chose to love you anyway.
You saved me.
You comforted me.
And somehow you did all of that
through a **** screen.
But I don’t want words anymore.
I want you to hold me.
I want you to stay,
even though I know I won’t always have you.
We’re just kids,
and I’m tired of falling in love
with the right people
at the wrong time.
Every person I’ve ever loved
has ended with the knife.
The knife always wins,
and my heart is always the thing left bleeding.
Still, those toxic chemicals pull me back,
and the cycle continues
while I stand in the middle of it,
still not knowing how to stop.
The piece explores a toxic but deeply comforting love that the speaker cannot escape. Even though the relationship causes emotional pain and repeatedly ends in heartbreak, the speaker remains addicted to the feeling of safety, love, and understanding the other person gives them