Mother's Day?

xx10m Poems

Mother’s Day is supposed to be about appreciation right? Cards flowers phone calls happy families pretending love was always easy That’s what everybody says anyway But what happens when the person who was supposed to protect you became the first person to break you instead? What happens when “home” was never safe enough to miss? I tried appreciating her I really did I tried ignoring the yelling the cold looks the feeling that I was unwanted inside the very place I was supposed to grow in I kept hoping maybe if I behaved better got quieter hurt less loudly she’d finally look at me like I mattered But some people only know how to love when it’s convenient for them And that realization cuts deeper than anger ever could Because a child will blame themselves for abandonment long before they blame the parent So every time she walked away emotionally I convinced myself I deserved it somehow That maybe I was too difficult too broken too much And eventually those thoughts stop sounding temporary They start sounding like truth Mother’s Day arrives and suddenly everyone’s posting pictures smiling beside women who made them feel safe Meanwhile I’m sitting here trying to figure out why somebody could create a life then leave it emotionally starving People say “but she’s still your mother” And maybe biologically that’s true But titles don’t erase damage A mother is supposed to nurture protect guide love Not make their child feel like surviving them became a personality trait Still… Somewhere deep down there’s a part of me that wishes things were different A younger version of me still waiting at the door hoping she comes back kinder this time And maybe that’s the saddest part of all No matter how much pain someone causes a child never fully stops wanting their parent’s love Even after everything — xx10m 🖤🥀🌧️