My deepest fear is to live a life where I don't know the answer
to the question of 'what if?'
Ironic, given I already have so many.
What if I'd stuck it out at work?
The drive to persistently progress might have led me somewhere.
The greasy pole doesn't stain your clothes if you wash them quickly.
I could have made the team leader, been the big cheese
More than just that 'one to watch'.
Perhaps.
What if I'd never stopped to ask?
We might have driven home.
Gone back to our lives as awkward friends
Not daring close the distance,
A kindling dampened before life's oxygen reached the spark.
We broke up in the end, anyway.
What if I'd never said no?
Who knows where that stranger wanted to lead us.
His friends lurked in shadows like a promise unfulfilled.
Maybe that one was a wise call.
There's always someone else to phone up for such things.
What if I said yes when the opportunity knocked first?
To that job, to that date, to that meeting.
Not closing the call off when it scared me and I didn't know.
I yearn for the safety of hindsight whilst not living my life in forward motion.
Press play for me.
May 10
May 10, 2026 at 2:37 PM UTC
My deepest fear is to live a life where I don't know the answer
to the question of 'what if?'
Ironic, given I already have so many.
What if I'd stuck it out at work?
The drive to persistently progress might have led me somewhere.
The greasy pole doesn't stain your clothes if you wash them quickly.
I could have made the team leader, been the big cheese
More than just that 'one to watch'.
Perhaps.
What if I'd never stopped to ask?
We might have driven home.
Gone back to our lives as awkward friends
Not daring close the distance,
A kindling dampened before life's oxygen reached the spark.
We broke up in the end, anyway.
What if I'd never said no?
Who knows where that stranger wanted to lead us.
His friends lurked in shadows like a promise unfulfilled.
Maybe that one was a wise call.
There's always someone else to phone up for such things.
What if I said yes when the opportunity knocked first?
To that job, to that date, to that meeting.
Not closing the call off when it scared me and I didn't know.
I yearn for the safety of hindsight whilst not living my life in forward motion.
Press play for me.