my mother is in the kitchen
and she is sitting on a stool in the centre
and she is crying
and she is crying and she is asking
the empty room and my ears listening
a door away what she has done
to cause her child to hate itself
enough to turn to this as if
this change comes from some kind of anger
i had hidden away in me
and not from love
she looks at me in my room
as she is standing at the top of the stairs
and the word that i have become
or that has become synonymous with me
is on her mind
it has infected me like a parasite
and taken away her baby
six years later i don’t hide
the garments in the washer
and she does not ask about the name
she hears from the mouth of my partner
and it goes unsaid
and we pretend
i did not beg
at her feet in the kitchen
Apr 29
Apr 29, 2026 at 6:17 AM UTC
my mother is in the kitchen
and she is sitting on a stool in the centre
and she is crying
and she is crying and she is asking
the empty room and my ears listening
a door away what she has done
to cause her child to hate itself
enough to turn to this as if
this change comes from some kind of anger
i had hidden away in me
and not from love
she looks at me in my room
as she is standing at the top of the stairs
and the word that i have become
or that has become synonymous with me
is on her mind
it has infected me like a parasite
and taken away her baby
six years later i don’t hide
the garments in the washer
and she does not ask about the name
she hears from the mouth of my partner
and it goes unsaid
and we pretend
i did not beg
at her feet in the kitchen
