it’s only been days
since we found our way back
but it doesn’t feel new
it feels like something
that was always there
just waiting
for us to say yes again
and now everything
feels softer
like when i’m laying in my bed
phone in my hand
waiting for you
pretending i’m not checking
every few minutes
but i am
because it’s you
and when you show up—
on my screen,
in your room,
laying there like it’s nothing—
everything in my head
just… quiets
like all the noise
all the stress
all the little things
i was overthinking
just disappear
and it’s just you
your face
so easy to look at
like i could memorize it
without even trying
your hair
never perfect
but always somehow
exactly right
your eyes—
calm
steady
like they don’t rush anything
like they don’t rush me
and i love that
i love you
in the way you don’t even notice
in the way you care
without making it a big deal
“did you eat today?”
like it matters
like i matter
and when i say
“sorry if i’m being annoying…”
you don’t even think about it
“you’re not annoying”
like it’s obvious
like i was never too much
and i don’t think
you understand
how much that stays with me
how much
you stay with me
even when you’re not here
because you’re not here
you’re miles away
in a place i can’t just go
an ocean between us
1,300… 1,400 miles
ten to twelve hours of flying
just to get to you
and i hate that
i hate that i can’t just
sit next to you
lean into you
feel your arms around me
instead of this—
screens
calls
waiting
always waiting
and then i’m at school
watching everyone else
holding hands in the hallway
laughing between classes
standing close
like distance isn’t real
and i think—
****
i wish i had that
i wish i could have you
like that
not later
not someday
now
but even then—
even when it hurts
i still choose you
because what we have
isn’t fake
it’s built in quiet moments
in long calls
where we don’t even talk
you playing your game
me laying on my side
just watching you
like that’s enough
because it is
and then—
“i love you”
“i love you more”
“no i do”
“nope”
over and over
like we’re never gonna stop
trying to prove it
and maybe
that’s my favorite part
because it’s soft
it’s real
it’s ours
and you make me happy
in a way
i don’t know how to explain
like everything
just feels lighter
like even when things aren’t perfect
i’m okay
because i have you
and yeah—
it’s only been days
but i’m really glad
it’s you
out of everyone
it’s you
and even with the distance
even with all the waiting
i’d still choose this
i’d still choose you
every time
Apr 26
Apr 26, 2026 at 11:00 PM UTC
it’s only been days
since we found our way back
but it doesn’t feel new
it feels like something
that was always there
just waiting
for us to say yes again
and now everything
feels softer
like when i’m laying in my bed
phone in my hand
waiting for you
pretending i’m not checking
every few minutes
but i am
because it’s you
and when you show up—
on my screen,
in your room,
laying there like it’s nothing—
everything in my head
just… quiets
like all the noise
all the stress
all the little things
i was overthinking
just disappear
and it’s just you
your face
so easy to look at
like i could memorize it
without even trying
your hair
never perfect
but always somehow
exactly right
your eyes—
calm
steady
like they don’t rush anything
like they don’t rush me
and i love that
i love you
in the way you don’t even notice
in the way you care
without making it a big deal
“did you eat today?”
like it matters
like i matter
and when i say
“sorry if i’m being annoying…”
you don’t even think about it
“you’re not annoying”
like it’s obvious
like i was never too much
and i don’t think
you understand
how much that stays with me
how much
you stay with me
even when you’re not here
because you’re not here
you’re miles away
in a place i can’t just go
an ocean between us
1,300… 1,400 miles
ten to twelve hours of flying
just to get to you
and i hate that
i hate that i can’t just
sit next to you
lean into you
feel your arms around me
instead of this—
screens
calls
waiting
always waiting
and then i’m at school
watching everyone else
holding hands in the hallway
laughing between classes
standing close
like distance isn’t real
and i think—
****
i wish i had that
i wish i could have you
like that
not later
not someday
now
but even then—
even when it hurts
i still choose you
because what we have
isn’t fake
it’s built in quiet moments
in long calls
where we don’t even talk
you playing your game
me laying on my side
just watching you
like that’s enough
because it is
and then—
“i love you”
“i love you more”
“no i do”
“nope”
over and over
like we’re never gonna stop
trying to prove it
and maybe
that’s my favorite part
because it’s soft
it’s real
it’s ours
and you make me happy
in a way
i don’t know how to explain
like everything
just feels lighter
like even when things aren’t perfect
i’m okay
because i have you
and yeah—
it’s only been days
but i’m really glad
it’s you
out of everyone
it’s you
and even with the distance
even with all the waiting
i’d still choose this
i’d still choose you
every time
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