If a watched *** never boils
I must be watched all the time
The churn of my insides never stops
I can feel them escaping me
My lid clattering as they splash out
I always think
What a mess I’m making
Those poor people
They must be sick of it
Of cleaning my insides
Of wiping me down
Of turning down the heat
I always think
If only I were a bigger ***
If only I were a better ***
If only I were a stronger ***
Things would be different
They would be happier
But no *** is big enough
No *** is good enough
No *** is strong enough
To hold everything it needs
To do everything they want
To be everything they can
At the end of the day
I’m just a ***
But maybe
Maybe that doesn’t mean
That I’m nothing more than a ***
Mar 26
Mar 26, 2026 at 5:33 AM UTC
If a watched *** never boils
I must be watched all the time
The churn of my insides never stops
I can feel them escaping me
My lid clattering as they splash out
I always think
What a mess I’m making
Those poor people
They must be sick of it
Of cleaning my insides
Of wiping me down
Of turning down the heat
I always think
If only I were a bigger ***
If only I were a better ***
If only I were a stronger ***
Things would be different
They would be happier
But no *** is big enough
No *** is good enough
No *** is strong enough
To hold everything it needs
To do everything they want
To be everything they can
At the end of the day
I’m just a ***
But maybe
Maybe that doesn’t mean
That I’m nothing more than a ***
Everything is so hard
For everyone all the time
Dying isn’t the answer as much as it feels like it is sometimes
It’s tempting to think that the pain stops but it won’t
It will live forever, never having the ability to change, losing the opportunity to learn or grow or help others
It moves into others too, your pain and sadness boiling over turns into the *** exploding
I don’t know what to live for
But if you’re alive, at least you can keep looking
As hard as it might feel sometimes