There’s this apathy inside of me
A solemn feeling that won’t leave me
A wound that never heals
Strung up like a Russian doll
Versions frozen in time, wrapped in a soul
Watching as the pendulum swings —
Oh, what the future might bring
Lost in a permeable stream
But what could it be but pain within a dream?
These chains are wrapped so tight,
Curling, squeezing, wrapping around my throat
Is this all that there is?
The air lingers with memories of an ambivalent child
Forced to breathe, forced to leave
Held down into submission
I am the prisoner and the room
Both the noose and the throat
And I wonder — will I float?
Watching life pass through me
All that I’ve been, all that I’ll never be
The solemn judgment, the setting sun
Drifting like smoke, brushing walls that echo in me
A silence in me, a silence enters me
I fracture into pieces, spinning, scattering like broken glass
A countdown to critical mass
Time folds into me
Moments leak through my fingers
The scars of the mind linger
I watch time consume the edges of me
I fall into spaces between seconds,
Where silence screams and time beckons.
Shadows dance and swallow my name,
Fragments of self playing with conflagrational flame.
Less than memory, less than thought,
Drifting in a world that has me not.
Mar 4
Mar 4, 2026 at 11:51 AM UTC
There’s this apathy inside of me
A solemn feeling that won’t leave me
A wound that never heals
Strung up like a Russian doll
Versions frozen in time, wrapped in a soul
Watching as the pendulum swings —
Oh, what the future might bring
Lost in a permeable stream
But what could it be but pain within a dream?
These chains are wrapped so tight,
Curling, squeezing, wrapping around my throat
Is this all that there is?
The air lingers with memories of an ambivalent child
Forced to breathe, forced to leave
Held down into submission
I am the prisoner and the room
Both the noose and the throat
And I wonder — will I float?
Watching life pass through me
All that I’ve been, all that I’ll never be
The solemn judgment, the setting sun
Drifting like smoke, brushing walls that echo in me
A silence in me, a silence enters me
I fracture into pieces, spinning, scattering like broken glass
A countdown to critical mass
Time folds into me
Moments leak through my fingers
The scars of the mind linger
I watch time consume the edges of me
I fall into spaces between seconds,
Where silence screams and time beckons.
Shadows dance and swallow my name,
Fragments of self playing with conflagrational flame.
Less than memory, less than thought,
Drifting in a world that has me not.
