I HAD A FEW DRINKS!
But im not drunk.
I haven't drank in awhile ,I cant remember how long its been.
But I want to ask you do you hate me? Are you capable of hating me?
The person I am, the one I will become?
I dont know if im still in love with you or I just miss someone who knows my inner self...
im growing without you...
I wish you were here...
but im numb,
I dont feel grief,
I dont feel sad.
Is this my new normal?
I've felt like this for what feels like eternity
Maybe its a sign that I dont need to bleed to know it mattered anymore.
When I drift off know my thoughts will be of you during this season.
An especially tonight.
What i can recall
A soft smile
Frizzy red hair,
A gentle squeeze of the hand.
Mar 1
Mar 1, 2026 at 4:04 AM UTC
I HAD A FEW DRINKS!
But im not drunk.
I haven't drank in awhile ,I cant remember how long its been.
But I want to ask you do you hate me? Are you capable of hating me?
The person I am, the one I will become?
I dont know if im still in love with you or I just miss someone who knows my inner self...
im growing without you...
I wish you were here...
but im numb,
I dont feel grief,
I dont feel sad.
Is this my new normal?
I've felt like this for what feels like eternity
Maybe its a sign that I dont need to bleed to know it mattered anymore.
When I drift off know my thoughts will be of you during this season.
An especially tonight.
What i can recall
A soft smile
Frizzy red hair,
A gentle squeeze of the hand.
