I learned silence like a second language,
bit my tongue until it memorized blood.
Held everything in so long
it started knocking from the inside
not politely.
My chest is loud,
my ears are pounding like alarms,
my thoughts are screaming say it, say it,
but my mouth stays loyal to the quiet.
Words line up at the back of my throat,
crowded, desperate, shaking
and still nothing comes out.
Just heat.
Just pressure.
Just that awful hum
of everything I never said
trying to claw its way free.
I’m calm on the outside,
but inside I’m boiling
and I don’t know
how much longer silence
can pretend it’s not drowning me.
Feb 6
Feb 6, 2026 at 2:10 AM UTC
I learned silence like a second language,
bit my tongue until it memorized blood.
Held everything in so long
it started knocking from the inside
not politely.
My chest is loud,
my ears are pounding like alarms,
my thoughts are screaming say it, say it,
but my mouth stays loyal to the quiet.
Words line up at the back of my throat,
crowded, desperate, shaking
and still nothing comes out.
Just heat.
Just pressure.
Just that awful hum
of everything I never said
trying to claw its way free.
I’m calm on the outside,
but inside I’m boiling
and I don’t know
how much longer silence
can pretend it’s not drowning me.
silence
