I want things that won’t look at me twice,
things perched just out of reach
like they know my name
but refuse to say it.
I need things I don’t even know how to ask for.
They feel fictional.
Too big for my mouth,
too fragile for my honesty.
Everything is stalled.
My effort.
My growth.
My breath halfway in.
I keep showing up,
but nothing meets me there.
No shift.
No sign.
No reward for trying.
I feel useless
in a world that only applauds motion,
and I am standing still
with tired hands and an empty
head.
Even my creativity abandoned me
left no note,
just this silence
that echoes louder than failure.
I’m not broken.
I’m just paused.
And nobody tells you
how heavy that feels.
Jan 28
Jan 28, 2026 at 5:10 PM UTC
I want things that won’t look at me twice,
things perched just out of reach
like they know my name
but refuse to say it.
I need things I don’t even know how to ask for.
They feel fictional.
Too big for my mouth,
too fragile for my honesty.
Everything is stalled.
My effort.
My growth.
My breath halfway in.
I keep showing up,
but nothing meets me there.
No shift.
No sign.
No reward for trying.
I feel useless
in a world that only applauds motion,
and I am standing still
with tired hands and an empty
head.
Even my creativity abandoned me
left no note,
just this silence
that echoes louder than failure.
I’m not broken.
I’m just paused.
And nobody tells you
how heavy that feels.
