a soft thing
tightened too far
until breath becomes ceremony
the room prefers symmetry
so it sands down weather
calls it calm
I arrive as spill
as echo
as something that won’t hold its shape
long enough to be forgiven
there are corridors
that hum even when empty
I leave pieces of heat there
and keep walking
something inside me learned
how to become useful
before it learned how to exist
this is how you become architecture
instead of a body
time keeps asking for payment
in small cuts
in repetition
in standing upright while the ground moves
I am praised for remaining intact
despite the fractures doing all the work
silence pools
not like water
like gravity
order mistakes stillness
for consent
mistakes quiet
for agreement
my empathy keeps reaching
past the point of return
touching everything
except relief
so I stop
mid-gesture
let the structure crack
let the neatness fail
I will not be the joint
that absorbs the strain
what survives me
is not softness
but edge
not forgiveness
but orientation
I turn
not away
but out
and the pressure releases
not into peace
but into space
Jan 17
Jan 17, 2026 at 7:07 PM UTC
a soft thing
tightened too far
until breath becomes ceremony
the room prefers symmetry
so it sands down weather
calls it calm
I arrive as spill
as echo
as something that won’t hold its shape
long enough to be forgiven
there are corridors
that hum even when empty
I leave pieces of heat there
and keep walking
something inside me learned
how to become useful
before it learned how to exist
this is how you become architecture
instead of a body
time keeps asking for payment
in small cuts
in repetition
in standing upright while the ground moves
I am praised for remaining intact
despite the fractures doing all the work
silence pools
not like water
like gravity
order mistakes stillness
for consent
mistakes quiet
for agreement
my empathy keeps reaching
past the point of return
touching everything
except relief
so I stop
mid-gesture
let the structure crack
let the neatness fail
I will not be the joint
that absorbs the strain
what survives me
is not softness
but edge
not forgiveness
but orientation
I turn
not away
but out
and the pressure releases
not into peace
but into space
