Every waking moment my head spins,
Thoughts buzzing back and forth like cesium.
My soft face ****** hot with needles and pins,
And yet I still cannot stop pleasing them.
Always wanting to scream but freezing when
I feel them start to pull away from me,
My heart seizes and I stop breathing then;
I can’t lose anymore, I’m so lonely.
Perhaps without me they live more freely,
Too much a burden on their shallow mind.
I really wish I wasn’t so needy,
But I can’t escape these vices that bind
Me to others’ love, fuel my seething pen.
I’ll fall in love, and they’ll just leave again...
Jan 7
Jan 7, 2026 at 12:28 PM UTC
Every waking moment my head spins,
Thoughts buzzing back and forth like cesium.
My soft face ****** hot with needles and pins,
And yet I still cannot stop pleasing them.
Always wanting to scream but freezing when
I feel them start to pull away from me,
My heart seizes and I stop breathing then;
I can’t lose anymore, I’m so lonely.
Perhaps without me they live more freely,
Too much a burden on their shallow mind.
I really wish I wasn’t so needy,
But I can’t escape these vices that bind
Me to others’ love, fuel my seething pen.
I’ll fall in love, and they’ll just leave again...
Pretty self-explainatory I think...
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