Drain me of my soul
And deplete me of feeling
My stomach is flipping
And my head it is reeling
I watch control slip away
The bar raising above my reach
I need to be scrubbed clean
Washed away with bleach
I swim in inability
My body never achieves
Except for the lies I cultivate
The ones they all believe
I flush out my own heart
Because it feels too filling
I can feel the weight of it all
The goals it keeps on killing
Sustenance is rancid
All here to bring me down
To faten up my thighs
And pile on the pounds
I carry memories
Of the societal taunts
The kicks prods and pokes
The experiences they haunt
I rip myself apart
To cleanse what is inside
For I am the disease I bear
And I'm desperate to survive
Dec 12, 2025
Dec 12, 2025 at 9:43 AM UTC
Drain me of my soul
And deplete me of feeling
My stomach is flipping
And my head it is reeling
I watch control slip away
The bar raising above my reach
I need to be scrubbed clean
Washed away with bleach
I swim in inability
My body never achieves
Except for the lies I cultivate
The ones they all believe
I flush out my own heart
Because it feels too filling
I can feel the weight of it all
The goals it keeps on killing
Sustenance is rancid
All here to bring me down
To faten up my thighs
And pile on the pounds
I carry memories
Of the societal taunts
The kicks prods and pokes
The experiences they haunt
I rip myself apart
To cleanse what is inside
For I am the disease I bear
And I'm desperate to survive
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