Today feels smooth,
like the world decided to glide instead of walk.
But beneath my skin,
anxiousness curls around me like a blanket
too warm to remove,
too familiar to fear.
I keep remembering yesterday,
and the day before that
how everything felt bright,
how every effort looked like a seed
finally learning how to open.
For a moment, I believed in the harvest.
But today, I’m holding anxiety’s hand.
Not by choice,
but the way someone grips a railing
when the floor feels unsure.
I tell myself I’ll let go
by the end of the week,
that this feeling is temporary,
that the storm is brief.
But what if it isn’t?
What if I have to walk with this knot
longer than I planned?
Will the outcome still bloom?
Will the fruit of all my quiet work
finally show its face?
Will everything I prayed for
remember to arrive?
And if it does
will I recognize it?
Will I know, deep down,
that this ache was part of the path,
that this hand I’m holding
wasn’t meant to guide me,
only keep me company
until the light remembers my name?
I ask myself, softly:
Will I get what I’ve earned?
Will all this waiting mean something?
Maybe the answer is already on its way.
Maybe today
is just the breath before the becoming.
Nov 26, 2025
Nov 26, 2025 at 7:24 AM UTC
Today feels smooth,
like the world decided to glide instead of walk.
But beneath my skin,
anxiousness curls around me like a blanket
too warm to remove,
too familiar to fear.
I keep remembering yesterday,
and the day before that
how everything felt bright,
how every effort looked like a seed
finally learning how to open.
For a moment, I believed in the harvest.
But today, I’m holding anxiety’s hand.
Not by choice,
but the way someone grips a railing
when the floor feels unsure.
I tell myself I’ll let go
by the end of the week,
that this feeling is temporary,
that the storm is brief.
But what if it isn’t?
What if I have to walk with this knot
longer than I planned?
Will the outcome still bloom?
Will the fruit of all my quiet work
finally show its face?
Will everything I prayed for
remember to arrive?
And if it does
will I recognize it?
Will I know, deep down,
that this ache was part of the path,
that this hand I’m holding
wasn’t meant to guide me,
only keep me company
until the light remembers my name?
I ask myself, softly:
Will I get what I’ve earned?
Will all this waiting mean something?
Maybe the answer is already on its way.
Maybe today
is just the breath before the becoming.
