so you set out to heal your trauma.
out of options,
you hope this is the right path.
you're desperate for somthing,
a different future,
a better me, you say.
you grab the first line
and you start pulling,
for truth, answers, anything.
you don't want to fail.
you unpack the boxes
the best you can,
and begin to understand
even the most beautiful colors
can blind.
the heartbreak comes in discovering
those who let you down
were the ones meant to shield.
and then the grief comes.
this person you are is only a shell,
built from broken promises,
a life you never conceived.
didn't you try once
to break free?
resilience,
they call it.
**** i love picking at old scabs.
they make me feel alive.
they hold the mirror
of who i used to be.
raw,
messy, wild, unfiltered,
and i miss her sometimes.
i'm clean sharp lines now,
measured and drawn,
because i no longer suffocate in the gray.
you resist at first
then learn to accept
that peace in chaos
will never exist.
what you do find is a quieter life,
where the demons finally sleep,
and you don't keep looking
over your shoulder.
waiting,
for an end you didn't write.
Nov 17, 2025
Nov 17, 2025 at 1:09 AM UTC
so you set out to heal your trauma.
out of options,
you hope this is the right path.
you're desperate for somthing,
a different future,
a better me, you say.
you grab the first line
and you start pulling,
for truth, answers, anything.
you don't want to fail.
you unpack the boxes
the best you can,
and begin to understand
even the most beautiful colors
can blind.
the heartbreak comes in discovering
those who let you down
were the ones meant to shield.
and then the grief comes.
this person you are is only a shell,
built from broken promises,
a life you never conceived.
didn't you try once
to break free?
resilience,
they call it.
**** i love picking at old scabs.
they make me feel alive.
they hold the mirror
of who i used to be.
raw,
messy, wild, unfiltered,
and i miss her sometimes.
i'm clean sharp lines now,
measured and drawn,
because i no longer suffocate in the gray.
you resist at first
then learn to accept
that peace in chaos
will never exist.
what you do find is a quieter life,
where the demons finally sleep,
and you don't keep looking
over your shoulder.
waiting,
for an end you didn't write.
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