The sun blazes through my doors
with that disappointing shine.
He knows I haven’t slept–
he won’t ask though, he knows I’ll lie.
The clock hums out of rhythm.
I hum along, pretending we agree.
There’s coffee on the counter,
cold and judgmental, just like me.
I’ve cleaned the same dish twice,
then forgot if I used soap.
The room’s too bright to rest,
way too bright to cope.
The moon texts me sometimes–
just a ghost light through the blinds.
We’ve been tag-teaming this madness,
losing track of time.
And I tell myself it’s fine,
this jittered kind of calm,
this silent, sleepless worship
of a mentally ticking bomb.
So I turn down the volume,
switch the vacuum on–
taking a moment to question it
is like admitting something’s wrong.
So let’s just say I got new batteries,
off-brand and previously used.
Bet I can get my life almost together,
right before I run out of juice.
The night sky always welcomes me,
every star is sure to say hi.
They never know when they can keep me–
searching constellations for the why.
Nov 10, 2025
Nov 10, 2025 at 6:54 AM UTC
The sun blazes through my doors
with that disappointing shine.
He knows I haven’t slept–
he won’t ask though, he knows I’ll lie.
The clock hums out of rhythm.
I hum along, pretending we agree.
There’s coffee on the counter,
cold and judgmental, just like me.
I’ve cleaned the same dish twice,
then forgot if I used soap.
The room’s too bright to rest,
way too bright to cope.
The moon texts me sometimes–
just a ghost light through the blinds.
We’ve been tag-teaming this madness,
losing track of time.
And I tell myself it’s fine,
this jittered kind of calm,
this silent, sleepless worship
of a mentally ticking bomb.
So I turn down the volume,
switch the vacuum on–
taking a moment to question it
is like admitting something’s wrong.
So let’s just say I got new batteries,
off-brand and previously used.
Bet I can get my life almost together,
right before I run out of juice.
The night sky always welcomes me,
every star is sure to say hi.
They never know when they can keep me–
searching constellations for the why.
And I've probably written this piece before
Many months ago
Maybe with different words
But it's the most interesting feeling I know
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