Conflicted emotions tear at me
I watch day by day as the people grow content around you
Home to your mind of wonders and intelligence
You're amazing at everything in every way
You design worlds and sing the work of experts
Every question you answer, and object you craft
With your hands so delicate yet steady
How do you do it?
How do you move each day without struggle
Crafting things of wonder from your mind
How do you not struggle to wake each day like I do?
You're like me; we're similar.
We're human,
Or we are supposed to be
I am disconnected
Forever forced to watch from afar as the people sing your praise
Adore the very air you breathe
the growing collection of awards and medals
The expanding influence of your gift
And I would rather die than hurt you
Yet I can't help it
I can't stop myself from praying for a sombre end
For a chance where you falter at something
Where I can come back to the light
Because I did so well
Once I was there besides you
Good enough to stand by your side and shine just as bright
Yet as you sung louder
While you drain me of my song
You drain me of the song I taught you to sing
And now you're flourishing
Happy and content
A poisonous late bloomer
While I rot
The gardener of my own demise
I regret every tear and sweat I put into growing you
Though I could never hate you
I will fade with time
Yet you will grow and take over the garden I had started
Each seed I had planted will be over taken
The **** in my heart
You've ruined my garden
Yet I can't find myself able to pull you out
For your petals make such sweet tea.
Oct 30, 2025
Oct 30, 2025 at 3:21 AM UTC
Conflicted emotions tear at me
I watch day by day as the people grow content around you
Home to your mind of wonders and intelligence
You're amazing at everything in every way
You design worlds and sing the work of experts
Every question you answer, and object you craft
With your hands so delicate yet steady
How do you do it?
How do you move each day without struggle
Crafting things of wonder from your mind
How do you not struggle to wake each day like I do?
You're like me; we're similar.
We're human,
Or we are supposed to be
I am disconnected
Forever forced to watch from afar as the people sing your praise
Adore the very air you breathe
the growing collection of awards and medals
The expanding influence of your gift
And I would rather die than hurt you
Yet I can't help it
I can't stop myself from praying for a sombre end
For a chance where you falter at something
Where I can come back to the light
Because I did so well
Once I was there besides you
Good enough to stand by your side and shine just as bright
Yet as you sung louder
While you drain me of my song
You drain me of the song I taught you to sing
And now you're flourishing
Happy and content
A poisonous late bloomer
While I rot
The gardener of my own demise
I regret every tear and sweat I put into growing you
Though I could never hate you
I will fade with time
Yet you will grow and take over the garden I had started
Each seed I had planted will be over taken
The **** in my heart
You've ruined my garden
Yet I can't find myself able to pull you out
For your petals make such sweet tea.
