I thought I knew
I had no idea,
Like seeing the splendor of a new dawn for the first time,
I am learning the void gets darker and heavier than you thought
My instincts tell me to convert it all to rage because that's what I understand best
But im too old not to know better, anger is a mask for pain and there is a lot hide these days.
I feel it all, in moments where my focus shouldn't leave me.
In the moments just before my body realizes its time for rest. I feel it all. I carry it all.
I am quite simply burdened by my best.
Doing all the right things in the right moments.
Being the right person for every moment that mattered.
And it all meant nothing, i carry it all. The weight of a new nothing.
Sep 29, 2025
Sep 29, 2025 at 4:12 PM UTC
I thought I knew
I had no idea,
Like seeing the splendor of a new dawn for the first time,
I am learning the void gets darker and heavier than you thought
My instincts tell me to convert it all to rage because that's what I understand best
But im too old not to know better, anger is a mask for pain and there is a lot hide these days.
I feel it all, in moments where my focus shouldn't leave me.
In the moments just before my body realizes its time for rest. I feel it all. I carry it all.
I am quite simply burdened by my best.
Doing all the right things in the right moments.
Being the right person for every moment that mattered.
And it all meant nothing, i carry it all. The weight of a new nothing.
Three months in and im still in shocked. Life and your choices have forced me to feel things for something I thought I would only ever feel love for.
