I hate seeing myself
more than knowing myself.
My chest aches
from seeing me too much.
My tears don’t fall anymore.
Why do I feel so insufficient?
F*ck… this hurts.
I have to hide
before this gets revealed.
It’s rare for me
to speak of the pain inside me.
It hurts to know
there’s something wrong with me.
I want to leave this place.
Why did I leave?
Why did I break?
I look up
and stop thinking of me.
And I just start writing.
I write words that hurt to say,
but not to write.
They slip from your mind
without you noticing.
Do I have talent?
I don’t know,
and I don’t want to.
I write what I feel
so no one ever sees it.
And if they do,
just know
these are my feelings,
not my knowledge.
“It’s easier to say it”—
that’s what they say
without living it.
How ignorant they are
without feeling it.
I don’t seek attention,
because this is a situation,
not an action.
I don’t care about your opinion.
This is all about disposition.
If you don’t have it,
you’ll never understand
what “seeking attention” really is.
Ignorant—
that’s what they are.
And that’s why
they can’t see the vision.
Aug 2, 2025
Aug 2, 2025 at 1:03 AM UTC
I hate seeing myself
more than knowing myself.
My chest aches
from seeing me too much.
My tears don’t fall anymore.
Why do I feel so insufficient?
F*ck… this hurts.
I have to hide
before this gets revealed.
It’s rare for me
to speak of the pain inside me.
It hurts to know
there’s something wrong with me.
I want to leave this place.
Why did I leave?
Why did I break?
I look up
and stop thinking of me.
And I just start writing.
I write words that hurt to say,
but not to write.
They slip from your mind
without you noticing.
Do I have talent?
I don’t know,
and I don’t want to.
I write what I feel
so no one ever sees it.
And if they do,
just know
these are my feelings,
not my knowledge.
“It’s easier to say it”—
that’s what they say
without living it.
How ignorant they are
without feeling it.
I don’t seek attention,
because this is a situation,
not an action.
I don’t care about your opinion.
This is all about disposition.
If you don’t have it,
you’ll never understand
what “seeking attention” really is.
Ignorant—
that’s what they are.
And that’s why
they can’t see the vision.