I was living normal, when there was happiness inside my body
I never thought to plan for a future that would be ruined from someone closest to me…
Not a stranger, Not a neighbour, Not a friend, Not a family member;
But myself.
My brain stopped working
So my mind stopped protecting me
I lost the shield that stayed in front of me
So I became shattered
I couldn’t pick up the pieces to make myself whole again
And that’s when it all started to happen;
All this anger,All this anxiety, All these moodswings
It was like a new world; one that I created
I had to figure out the path to normality
but I couldn’t
All these wires attacked to the pieces, became black
And those pieces grew dark;
Too dark for me to put back together
The past became my nightmares
And the regrets became my fears
I trapped myself with the new me
I didn’t recognize myself anymore
I felt like my own mind took the life out of me
I had years of empty responses about who I was
I couldn’t think of who was hidden, and who was found
The times that I was out of control felt like I was being taken over by a demon
I wanted freedom from myself
Uncontrollable thoughts & actions are the reason my confusion began
The darkness surrounded me, stole all the light inside of me
The strength that I had suddenly disappeared,
I couldn’t handle myself, and I became weak
With these outbursts, and intense emotions,
I lost myself
And now all my wires have been cut
I was forced to start all over
But not normal; but insane
I figured out that I rewired my brain,
Then memorized the pain.
I became numb,
And never saw myself again
Sep 26, 2025
Sep 26, 2025 at 3:00 AM UTC
I was living normal, when there was happiness inside my body
I never thought to plan for a future that would be ruined from someone closest to me…
Not a stranger, Not a neighbour, Not a friend, Not a family member;
But myself.
My brain stopped working
So my mind stopped protecting me
I lost the shield that stayed in front of me
So I became shattered
I couldn’t pick up the pieces to make myself whole again
And that’s when it all started to happen;
All this anger,All this anxiety, All these moodswings
It was like a new world; one that I created
I had to figure out the path to normality
but I couldn’t
All these wires attacked to the pieces, became black
And those pieces grew dark;
Too dark for me to put back together
The past became my nightmares
And the regrets became my fears
I trapped myself with the new me
I didn’t recognize myself anymore
I felt like my own mind took the life out of me
I had years of empty responses about who I was
I couldn’t think of who was hidden, and who was found
The times that I was out of control felt like I was being taken over by a demon
I wanted freedom from myself
Uncontrollable thoughts & actions are the reason my confusion began
The darkness surrounded me, stole all the light inside of me
The strength that I had suddenly disappeared,
I couldn’t handle myself, and I became weak
With these outbursts, and intense emotions,
I lost myself
And now all my wires have been cut
I was forced to start all over
But not normal; but insane
I figured out that I rewired my brain,
Then memorized the pain.
I became numb,
And never saw myself again