morning comes in blue / but we stay
behind the curtain / like moths / afraid of god.
he’s still asleep / mouth open /
like he’s trying to forget something with his whole face.
i watch him /
because i don’t know how to leave without looking back.
last night / he called me by my name
like it was something clean.
like i didn’t bring the devil in a baggie /
and offer it with both hands.
my jaw aches from grinding.
my heart a metronome stuck between
mercy & mistake.
i touch his back
to prove he’s real.
warm.
unruined.
for a second, i imagine
us at a diner / sober / coffee gone cold
talking about the weather / not the weight.
but i know the difference between
a future
and a fever dream.
he stirs.
eyes half-mast.
says:
you stayed.
i nod /
because i love you
sounds too much like
i’m sorry.
Jul 11, 2025
Jul 11, 2025 at 1:01 AM UTC
morning comes in blue / but we stay
behind the curtain / like moths / afraid of god.
he’s still asleep / mouth open /
like he’s trying to forget something with his whole face.
i watch him /
because i don’t know how to leave without looking back.
last night / he called me by my name
like it was something clean.
like i didn’t bring the devil in a baggie /
and offer it with both hands.
my jaw aches from grinding.
my heart a metronome stuck between
mercy & mistake.
i touch his back
to prove he’s real.
warm.
unruined.
for a second, i imagine
us at a diner / sober / coffee gone cold
talking about the weather / not the weight.
but i know the difference between
a future
and a fever dream.
he stirs.
eyes half-mast.
says:
you stayed.
i nod /
because i love you
sounds too much like
i’m sorry.
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