It's always between the two.
Myself or everyone else?
Myself or my family?
Honest to myself or acceptable to everyone else?
Truth or tradition?
I don't want to lose them, their respect, everyone's respect.
Nobody is going to accept me or take me seriously, and I can't just give up everything I'm known as.
Can't give up the little I have left.
But I can't live like this.
Every day like this just feels so wrong.
I hate myself,
I hate living.
I can't live my life like this, live someone else's life.
I try to convince myself that I'm wrong, that I'm just doing it for the 'trend', for attention
but I can't.
I can't stand looking like this, being seen as something I'm just not.
But a big part of society hates the existence of people like me,
my friends hate the existence of people like me,
my family hates the existence of people like me.
What am I meant to do?
I hate this so much.
The constant reminders, the self-hatred, peer-judgment, fear, frustration, people on social media and the news and the government and ****
I hate this so so so much.
Dec 2, 2024
Dec 2, 2024 at 9:45 PM UTC
It's always between the two.
Myself or everyone else?
Myself or my family?
Honest to myself or acceptable to everyone else?
Truth or tradition?
I don't want to lose them, their respect, everyone's respect.
Nobody is going to accept me or take me seriously, and I can't just give up everything I'm known as.
Can't give up the little I have left.
But I can't live like this.
Every day like this just feels so wrong.
I hate myself,
I hate living.
I can't live my life like this, live someone else's life.
I try to convince myself that I'm wrong, that I'm just doing it for the 'trend', for attention
but I can't.
I can't stand looking like this, being seen as something I'm just not.
But a big part of society hates the existence of people like me,
my friends hate the existence of people like me,
my family hates the existence of people like me.
What am I meant to do?
I hate this so much.
The constant reminders, the self-hatred, peer-judgment, fear, frustration, people on social media and the news and the government and ****
I hate this so so so much.
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