Life is good
Life is swell
Looking at you
from the bottom of my well
You say relax, sit back and smile
I say I would if I didn't have to shovel this pile
Razor blades outside my skin
repel your love cutting me within
My tortured mind takes over reason
I try to hold on white knuckling the season
I didn't invite this darkness to enter
It barges on in, knocking me off of my center
I pull from my bag of miraculous tricks
Meditation, Deep Breathing, but nothing sticks
The hardest part is what this does to you and me
I cry I'm sorry Babe, here is my apology
*I'm awful to be around, to talk to, to love
I pray for your patience
and strength from above*
*I've lost the real me it seems to be
My sadness and nerves are my identity*
*I know I'm still here, plugging along
Playing Mommy, cleaning house, but without any song*
*Please reach closer when I push you away
Not easy I know, especially some days
Your love and tenderness ground me to home
You by my side shows me I'm not alone*
*Scrunched in my darkness
Squinting for light
Reach your hand out to me; say "It'll be alright"*
*My distance is really a huge shield of shame
I hate myself, loathe myself and take all the blame*
*This is not really me; messed up thoughts inside
I want to purge it all leaving my heart open wide*
*I love you, I need you, I want you near
It's so hard to ask you to wipe up my tears*
*Today's reality, skewed and blue
Tomorrow may bring sunshine
And Me back to You.*
Oct 18, 2013
Oct 18, 2013 at 11:26 AM UTC
Life is good
Life is swell
Looking at you
from the bottom of my well
You say relax, sit back and smile
I say I would if I didn't have to shovel this pile
Razor blades outside my skin
repel your love cutting me within
My tortured mind takes over reason
I try to hold on white knuckling the season
I didn't invite this darkness to enter
It barges on in, knocking me off of my center
I pull from my bag of miraculous tricks
Meditation, Deep Breathing, but nothing sticks
The hardest part is what this does to you and me
I cry I'm sorry Babe, here is my apology
*I'm awful to be around, to talk to, to love
I pray for your patience
and strength from above*
*I've lost the real me it seems to be
My sadness and nerves are my identity*
*I know I'm still here, plugging along
Playing Mommy, cleaning house, but without any song*
*Please reach closer when I push you away
Not easy I know, especially some days
Your love and tenderness ground me to home
You by my side shows me I'm not alone*
*Scrunched in my darkness
Squinting for light
Reach your hand out to me; say "It'll be alright"*
*My distance is really a huge shield of shame
I hate myself, loathe myself and take all the blame*
*This is not really me; messed up thoughts inside
I want to purge it all leaving my heart open wide*
*I love you, I need you, I want you near
It's so hard to ask you to wipe up my tears*
*Today's reality, skewed and blue
Tomorrow may bring sunshine
And Me back to You.*
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