There is a never ending breed of bracteria livig in my bones
It
almost chews with the full intent of biting off but not quite, holds back just enough to leave me hanging
my joints, nooses of collateral damage,
they
almost wiggle like worms but burn with less intensity than pain.
There is a never ending wall of inter knotted muscle within my back
I call these things frustration
although alot of the time they feel like fury
make my neck ache like guilts burden.
I have ground my teeth to tiny sizable pellets and
picked at my charred white skin,
until there is no more youth in this body
all you will see is five foot seven of sallow eyes
pale faced
bloated frustration
corpse-like
if corpses smiled.
Untill my teeth are yellowed from coffee and cigarettes and the laugh lines around my mouth taunt me like the scars on my upper arm (if you are scarred just as painfully by laughter as a knife what is the point of it all)
12 inches of stitched back frustration that reads:
you cannot undo
what was done
stitches I want i want to rip out in the company of polite
normal people and
smile at their disgusted faces
have you ever as a child
been so unhappy by what you put down on paper
you would scrunch the whole thing up after crossing it out in the thickest black marker
throw it in the bin and start over?
This is what living feels like
I am just a canvas
I can almost remember what it was like to laugh
Sep 28, 2013
Sep 28, 2013 at 8:46 PM UTC
There is a never ending breed of bracteria livig in my bones
It
almost chews with the full intent of biting off but not quite, holds back just enough to leave me hanging
my joints, nooses of collateral damage,
they
almost wiggle like worms but burn with less intensity than pain.
There is a never ending wall of inter knotted muscle within my back
I call these things frustration
although alot of the time they feel like fury
make my neck ache like guilts burden.
I have ground my teeth to tiny sizable pellets and
picked at my charred white skin,
until there is no more youth in this body
all you will see is five foot seven of sallow eyes
pale faced
bloated frustration
corpse-like
if corpses smiled.
Untill my teeth are yellowed from coffee and cigarettes and the laugh lines around my mouth taunt me like the scars on my upper arm (if you are scarred just as painfully by laughter as a knife what is the point of it all)
12 inches of stitched back frustration that reads:
you cannot undo
what was done
stitches I want i want to rip out in the company of polite
normal people and
smile at their disgusted faces
have you ever as a child
been so unhappy by what you put down on paper
you would scrunch the whole thing up after crossing it out in the thickest black marker
throw it in the bin and start over?
This is what living feels like
I am just a canvas
I can almost remember what it was like to laugh
Sorry about the quality
havent been as peachy