She sits on her bed
brushing her long brown hair
with the brush
her mother gave her.
She has had a bath,
needed after being
with him,
the way he was,
and for so long.
The bath so relaxing,
the water just right,
being able to lay there,
water over her,
suds from the borrowed
bath stuff( Gabrielle
need never know),
she feeling the water
fondling about her *******
washing him off,
dissolving him
in the suds.
She brushes him out
of her hair,
each long stroke
and a bit more of him
is gone.
She stops and thinks.
Mid air the brush
and hand stay.
Was it always that way?
No, there was a time
when seeing him
was a pleasure,
she actually used to get
excited when he
was to come,
actually looked forward
to his presence,
his love making,
the things he used to do,
the way he did them.
Now, she dreads him
being there,
making love to her,
his fingers in her hair.
She brushes again,
downward strokes,
takes out the knots
that gather at the ends.
Was it ever love?
Was it other than physical?
Just a game of the ******
She puts down the brush
and gazes at herself
in the old fashion mirror.
Still passable,
still presentable,
still has it in bucketfuls
as he used to say.
But, no,
she supposes not,
never really got to her heart,
never quite made it that far.
Liar, she tells herself,
you loved him more
than any other,
used to lay awake
at night thinking of him
and his next call,
it wasn't just *** after all.
No, I suppose not,
there was that strong
element of love,
that other than just
the physical,
other than the ******
But that makes it worse
not better,
the fact I loved him once,
she tells herself,
takes it deeper,
takes it to the core
of the heart,
that place where each
string of nerve,
each particle of being
is torn open
like a ripe fruit
and ****** dry.
She's just had ***
with him,
just the physical,
just the lying down
and taking it bit.
Now, she loves him not,
the lying, cheating ****
Sep 28, 2013
Sep 28, 2013 at 2:05 AM UTC
She sits on her bed
brushing her long brown hair
with the brush
her mother gave her.
She has had a bath,
needed after being
with him,
the way he was,
and for so long.
The bath so relaxing,
the water just right,
being able to lay there,
water over her,
suds from the borrowed
bath stuff( Gabrielle
need never know),
she feeling the water
fondling about her *******
washing him off,
dissolving him
in the suds.
She brushes him out
of her hair,
each long stroke
and a bit more of him
is gone.
She stops and thinks.
Mid air the brush
and hand stay.
Was it always that way?
No, there was a time
when seeing him
was a pleasure,
she actually used to get
excited when he
was to come,
actually looked forward
to his presence,
his love making,
the things he used to do,
the way he did them.
Now, she dreads him
being there,
making love to her,
his fingers in her hair.
She brushes again,
downward strokes,
takes out the knots
that gather at the ends.
Was it ever love?
Was it other than physical?
Just a game of the ******
She puts down the brush
and gazes at herself
in the old fashion mirror.
Still passable,
still presentable,
still has it in bucketfuls
as he used to say.
But, no,
she supposes not,
never really got to her heart,
never quite made it that far.
Liar, she tells herself,
you loved him more
than any other,
used to lay awake
at night thinking of him
and his next call,
it wasn't just *** after all.
No, I suppose not,
there was that strong
element of love,
that other than just
the physical,
other than the ******
But that makes it worse
not better,
the fact I loved him once,
she tells herself,
takes it deeper,
takes it to the core
of the heart,
that place where each
string of nerve,
each particle of being
is torn open
like a ripe fruit
and ****** dry.
She's just had ***
with him,
just the physical,
just the lying down
and taking it bit.
Now, she loves him not,
the lying, cheating ****
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