I am lost in a maze that I built myself.
I put up each wall to remind myself to not go down that path again.
To block the feelings, the people, the thoughts, the actions that took a piece of me.
Each time I felt weaker, but promised myself these walls would help me stay whole.
I built a barrier between me and whatever was taking control of me.
I realized what was happening again, I built another wall.
But now I'm at a dead end. trapped by the walls I thought would protect me. I have no where to go, and only I hold a map to this maze.
I only know how to build, not to take down. I don't want to know what's behind the walls, but I can't stay trapped forever.
the first hit will be the hardest, but maybe ill find the pieces I've lost on the way back to the start.
Apr 22, 2022
Apr 22, 2022 at 11:50 PM UTC
I am lost in a maze that I built myself.
I put up each wall to remind myself to not go down that path again.
To block the feelings, the people, the thoughts, the actions that took a piece of me.
Each time I felt weaker, but promised myself these walls would help me stay whole.
I built a barrier between me and whatever was taking control of me.
I realized what was happening again, I built another wall.
But now I'm at a dead end. trapped by the walls I thought would protect me. I have no where to go, and only I hold a map to this maze.
I only know how to build, not to take down. I don't want to know what's behind the walls, but I can't stay trapped forever.
the first hit will be the hardest, but maybe ill find the pieces I've lost on the way back to the start.