laying your head in my lap
the way you always wanted to
looking up at me
as our eyes meet
for a few moments
dark oak swirling
with words we're
too nervous to
say out loud
seconds pass and
we can't take it
anymore
you roll-over
onto the bed
and i hunch
into myself
we can't stop laughing
making spiderman jokes
sneaking glances through
the night til our hands
intertwine without
meaning to
both wishing
we would
have kissed
i'm living all the way up here now
the mountains trail down to your
old suburban home
you're not here
not in my lap
staring up at me
brown
and blue
against one
another
her eyes
laughing
and twisting
until they've
faded away
i miss you
but the phone
won't even
ring
Mar 7, 2022
Mar 7, 2022 at 11:09 PM UTC
laying your head in my lap
the way you always wanted to
looking up at me
as our eyes meet
for a few moments
dark oak swirling
with words we're
too nervous to
say out loud
seconds pass and
we can't take it
anymore
you roll-over
onto the bed
and i hunch
into myself
we can't stop laughing
making spiderman jokes
sneaking glances through
the night til our hands
intertwine without
meaning to
both wishing
we would
have kissed
i'm living all the way up here now
the mountains trail down to your
old suburban home
you're not here
not in my lap
staring up at me
brown
and blue
against one
another
her eyes
laughing
and twisting
until they've
faded away
i miss you
but the phone
won't even
ring
writing this made me cry lololol. why did she have to die? why her? i wish i could go back in time and kiss her. i'm not in love with her anymore after all these years but i never stopped loving her?? i don't know if that makes sense. i need to edit this and probably scrap it all together idk. i just. i'm laying in bed alone with my cat and i'm wishing we did all the things we said we were going to do. i just want to hold her hand and tell her that i wish she was here
