Bare monstrosity
carved for me
protected, decorated
Unleashed for me; I
Love myself ugly so— ugly,
so lovely a word, and secretive.
Could not dare measure
the lengths and lengths
of its shadowy stretch.
So willingly blind, I
lurk oblivious into my depths
Lost to the haze
my drowning—
my stillness. Lost;
but a memory, clinging,
stays:
Lush gold fields
subsiding to moor.
Then the fire they lit.
Ripped for me
emptied and burned for me,
My own beloved lamb.
I wish I yielded,
melted; wish I shivered—
pleaded.
I wish I wasn’t such a god
wish I knew the taste of
my blood, the burning redness,
the undying throbbing of it
The ever-coiling restraint of it
Rattling chains, I wish I had.
Marked with my name
So terrifying this transcendence
so terrifying I—
Sep 14, 2021
Sep 14, 2021 at 11:50 AM UTC
Bare monstrosity
carved for me
protected, decorated
Unleashed for me; I
Love myself ugly so— ugly,
so lovely a word, and secretive.
Could not dare measure
the lengths and lengths
of its shadowy stretch.
So willingly blind, I
lurk oblivious into my depths
Lost to the haze
my drowning—
my stillness. Lost;
but a memory, clinging,
stays:
Lush gold fields
subsiding to moor.
Then the fire they lit.
Ripped for me
emptied and burned for me,
My own beloved lamb.
I wish I yielded,
melted; wish I shivered—
pleaded.
I wish I wasn’t such a god
wish I knew the taste of
my blood, the burning redness,
the undying throbbing of it
The ever-coiling restraint of it
Rattling chains, I wish I had.
Marked with my name
So terrifying this transcendence
so terrifying I—
14/09/2021
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