Some of us are motivated by love. Some are motivated by money. Some by family/friends.
I am motivated by fear.
By my fear of losing it. I mean, REALLY losing it.
Losing what?
MY MIND.
When life becomes difficult and I feel stress. I get headaches, or a lack of sleep .
My fear is losing my sanity.
I worry I will make decisions that will cause others to take away my freedom.
My freedom of movement. My ability to come and go at will.
I value my ability to 'get up and leave' when I feel the need.
My biggest fear in life is becoming so irrational as a result of high stress and then not being able to deal with everyday things.
Insanity.
And being placed somewhere where others control me and not ME controlling me.
Many decisions I make in my daily life reflect my need to avoid any possibility of this happening to me.
I try to not think about this every day but its always in the back of my mind.
Aug 13, 2013
Aug 13, 2013 at 12:46 PM UTC
Some of us are motivated by love. Some are motivated by money. Some by family/friends.
I am motivated by fear.
By my fear of losing it. I mean, REALLY losing it.
Losing what?
MY MIND.
When life becomes difficult and I feel stress. I get headaches, or a lack of sleep .
My fear is losing my sanity.
I worry I will make decisions that will cause others to take away my freedom.
My freedom of movement. My ability to come and go at will.
I value my ability to 'get up and leave' when I feel the need.
My biggest fear in life is becoming so irrational as a result of high stress and then not being able to deal with everyday things.
Insanity.
And being placed somewhere where others control me and not ME controlling me.
Many decisions I make in my daily life reflect my need to avoid any possibility of this happening to me.
I try to not think about this every day but its always in the back of my mind.
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