Sometimes I wish
That I had a Sign
Like a constant notepad
For people to read
Maybe then they would try to
Listen a little closer
But I wear the silent bells now
Calling with my empty voice
The room gets bigger
But I feel suffocated
Fidgeting with no fingers
Bleeding nails of yesterday
Or mere seconds ago
I spin walk around in an oval shape with edges
Sometimes I wish for an open wound
Needing care
People bring bandage to a funeral
And flowers to a wedding
Pictures of the beautiful ******
Ignoring the anxiety cloud of a Girl
I get through the sorl of breaths and coffe
The sounds of the red light klonking loudly
Breaking through my headphones
Sometimes I really wished they could see
See my constant struggle to survive in this neurotypical World
Jan 21, 2021
Jan 21, 2021 at 6:03 PM UTC
Sometimes I wish
That I had a Sign
Like a constant notepad
For people to read
Maybe then they would try to
Listen a little closer
But I wear the silent bells now
Calling with my empty voice
The room gets bigger
But I feel suffocated
Fidgeting with no fingers
Bleeding nails of yesterday
Or mere seconds ago
I spin walk around in an oval shape with edges
Sometimes I wish for an open wound
Needing care
People bring bandage to a funeral
And flowers to a wedding
Pictures of the beautiful ******
Ignoring the anxiety cloud of a Girl
I get through the sorl of breaths and coffe
The sounds of the red light klonking loudly
Breaking through my headphones
Sometimes I really wished they could see
See my constant struggle to survive in this neurotypical World
Sometimes I get frustrated by the fact that my autism is invisible to the naked eye.
My daily and minute by minute struggle of life.
Every autistic person is different, I am still exploring all of my autistic and ADD sides and finding new versions of stimming, fidgeting and difficulties that I have unconsciously been masking.
