On my right;
A pair of girls with trendy leather messenger bags
Permanently glued to their shoulders
That holds no namesakes
On my left;
One ex-best friend,
One once-friend-but-now-an-enemy,
And a third who hates by association
Navy drips from the spot directly above my head
And slides, and spreads,
And covers the teal along the edges of evening
*My jaw is ground shut with the tension,
The weight of the hatred
Clamping my teeth to each other
Pulling the muscles with their ties
That are beyond invisible*
I’m alone, as always –
No emo intended.
Jun 26, 2010
Jun 26, 2010 at 10:53 PM UTC
On my right;
A pair of girls with trendy leather messenger bags
Permanently glued to their shoulders
That holds no namesakes
On my left;
One ex-best friend,
One once-friend-but-now-an-enemy,
And a third who hates by association
Navy drips from the spot directly above my head
And slides, and spreads,
And covers the teal along the edges of evening
*My jaw is ground shut with the tension,
The weight of the hatred
Clamping my teeth to each other
Pulling the muscles with their ties
That are beyond invisible*
I’m alone, as always –
No emo intended.
I wrote this on my cell phone after seeing a play at my school, observing my schoolmates around me as I waited for my dad to arrive. I kept getting chills not from the evening, but from the walls they had built around me, even the people I didn't know.