I rest my head against the last bottle of squash I had in my house
watching the patches of worn-out paint on the ceiling
thinking about the number of times it had been repaired in 21 years
have seen almost every color of sewing thread in all these years, we have come far
there was a time when we didn't have options
"either A or B"
my mother would ask me every time we were at the super market
A was tomato ketchup
B was green chili sauce
it was hard to choose between things
when you don't know what you love less
but I loved my mother more
I didn't want to be there with my father
so I have to choose
without any escape
mama was beautiful
but she was never hungry
and today when I brought both of the sauces
she didn't want to taste any of it
"what brings you home so late?"
she asks this almost every day now
and I realized it was never about A or B for her
and options were the case for a naive mind
there is a long way to go until I can think of myself as a little wise whenever answering her
Oct 26, 2020
Oct 26, 2020 at 11:03 AM UTC
I rest my head against the last bottle of squash I had in my house
watching the patches of worn-out paint on the ceiling
thinking about the number of times it had been repaired in 21 years
have seen almost every color of sewing thread in all these years, we have come far
there was a time when we didn't have options
"either A or B"
my mother would ask me every time we were at the super market
A was tomato ketchup
B was green chili sauce
it was hard to choose between things
when you don't know what you love less
but I loved my mother more
I didn't want to be there with my father
so I have to choose
without any escape
mama was beautiful
but she was never hungry
and today when I brought both of the sauces
she didn't want to taste any of it
"what brings you home so late?"
she asks this almost every day now
and I realized it was never about A or B for her
and options were the case for a naive mind
there is a long way to go until I can think of myself as a little wise whenever answering her
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