step one.)
think. think of everything that people must hate about you.
step two.)
let it consume you until you forget to breathe
step three.)
drop microscopic hints to people that you're not okay
step four.)
breakdown when they don't get it
step five.)
make excuses for them
step six.)
fear that they do get it, but you just bother them so much that they don't care
step seven.)
stop talking
step eight.)
start overeating, or eating nothing (with practice, you may be able to do a combination of both)
step nine.)
watch tv until you fall asleep on the couch every night
step ten.)
don't shower
step eleven.)
go numb
step twelve.)
receive a notification on your phone that sends you spiraling into self loathing and wondering why the hell you did this in the first place because it doesn't make it better. it doesn't. it doesn't
step thirteen.)
feel selfish for even thinking about bothering anyone again just to satisfy your own stupid craving for attention
step fourteen.)
finally reach out
step fifteen.)
repeat steps one through fourteen. again and again and again.
step sixteen.)
die
Jul 5, 2020
Jul 5, 2020 at 7:36 PM UTC
step one.)
think. think of everything that people must hate about you.
step two.)
let it consume you until you forget to breathe
step three.)
drop microscopic hints to people that you're not okay
step four.)
breakdown when they don't get it
step five.)
make excuses for them
step six.)
fear that they do get it, but you just bother them so much that they don't care
step seven.)
stop talking
step eight.)
start overeating, or eating nothing (with practice, you may be able to do a combination of both)
step nine.)
watch tv until you fall asleep on the couch every night
step ten.)
don't shower
step eleven.)
go numb
step twelve.)
receive a notification on your phone that sends you spiraling into self loathing and wondering why the hell you did this in the first place because it doesn't make it better. it doesn't. it doesn't
step thirteen.)
feel selfish for even thinking about bothering anyone again just to satisfy your own stupid craving for attention
step fourteen.)
finally reach out
step fifteen.)
repeat steps one through fourteen. again and again and again.
step sixteen.)
die
sick of this.
07.05.2020
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