It's like a switch flipped in his brain. I went from his everything to nothing in the matter of hours. Suddenly my safe place and my person just disappeared. No warning, no reason, no response. I am alone again. I am grieving, I am mourning the loss. But it's hard to mourn when you are still lost. No answers. No replies. Not worth the time. Just alone again. trying to build yourself back up into a functional human. But you can't because the big black brain monster has taken over everything. Got to sleep crying, wake up crying, spend the days in-between crying. Call off of work because you can't keep it together. Because you can't paint on the happy face. Darkness. Alone. Just you your brain and your blankets. hoping that maybe he will come back.
Mar 2, 2020
Mar 2, 2020 at 10:07 AM UTC
It's like a switch flipped in his brain. I went from his everything to nothing in the matter of hours. Suddenly my safe place and my person just disappeared. No warning, no reason, no response. I am alone again. I am grieving, I am mourning the loss. But it's hard to mourn when you are still lost. No answers. No replies. Not worth the time. Just alone again. trying to build yourself back up into a functional human. But you can't because the big black brain monster has taken over everything. Got to sleep crying, wake up crying, spend the days in-between crying. Call off of work because you can't keep it together. Because you can't paint on the happy face. Darkness. Alone. Just you your brain and your blankets. hoping that maybe he will come back.