EYES
two three four
RIGHT
two three four
The commands still fresh in my head
we piled on the bus before dawn.
On the way to the airport I took off my
glasses and put in contact lenses that
had been sitting in a closet for eight weeks.
It felt good to look like myself again.
I would never be myself again.
I saw the sun rise in Phoenix, dawning
on my new life. Warm March morning
seeping through terminal windows
waiting for our connecting flight. We
paced in anticipation.
Pacing. Pacing. Pacing. Waiting. Boarding.
Landing.
Surrounded by smiling, welcoming faces
and yet instantly alone. I had too many
bags and had to carry them up three flights
of stairs by myself. It was late. I didn't
make my bed in the morning.
I got yelled at.
I was instantly alone.
In this shining bright dawn on a brand new
age sun warm on my face fog cool on
my skin
I was instantly violently terrifyingly alone.
And I would never be myself again.
Apr 18, 2013
Apr 18, 2013 at 8:14 PM UTC
EYES
two three four
RIGHT
two three four
The commands still fresh in my head
we piled on the bus before dawn.
On the way to the airport I took off my
glasses and put in contact lenses that
had been sitting in a closet for eight weeks.
It felt good to look like myself again.
I would never be myself again.
I saw the sun rise in Phoenix, dawning
on my new life. Warm March morning
seeping through terminal windows
waiting for our connecting flight. We
paced in anticipation.
Pacing. Pacing. Pacing. Waiting. Boarding.
Landing.
Surrounded by smiling, welcoming faces
and yet instantly alone. I had too many
bags and had to carry them up three flights
of stairs by myself. It was late. I didn't
make my bed in the morning.
I got yelled at.
I was instantly alone.
In this shining bright dawn on a brand new
age sun warm on my face fog cool on
my skin
I was instantly violently terrifyingly alone.
And I would never be myself again.
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