I pray my toxic cycle is over
I hope he won’t use me for ***
I pray we’ll stay together ‘til we’re older
I hope he’s not like my ex
but there is no way to know
and that eats me up inside
the more I feel my love grow
the more I fear he’ll leave my side
he seems to be a good man
but my judgment is always wrong
how do I know there's no evil plan
how do I know that we’re lifelong
he’s been honest from the start
he shows love to more than my physique
he compliments me for being smart
he holds me close when I am weak
I guess I have to trust the process
and put my heart back on the line
I just pray that all this progress
will end with him being forever mine
Jan 8, 2020
Jan 8, 2020 at 12:34 AM UTC
I pray my toxic cycle is over
I hope he won’t use me for ***
I pray we’ll stay together ‘til we’re older
I hope he’s not like my ex
but there is no way to know
and that eats me up inside
the more I feel my love grow
the more I fear he’ll leave my side
he seems to be a good man
but my judgment is always wrong
how do I know there's no evil plan
how do I know that we’re lifelong
he’s been honest from the start
he shows love to more than my physique
he compliments me for being smart
he holds me close when I am weak
I guess I have to trust the process
and put my heart back on the line
I just pray that all this progress
will end with him being forever mine
So I've been gone for a hot minute. I got cheated on and was so busy wallowing in self-pity that I didn't post the few poems I wrote. I'm in a healthy relationship now, but I'm so scarred from the past that I'm petrified I'll ruin it. This was me just sorting through my thoughts. I'm currently happier than ever, so I'm back to writing.