today i woke up to a spirit.
i opened my eyes to nothingness, but i could feel the warmth radiating off of the dip in the bed.
at first i was dumbfounded
where were you? could you be the spirit?
and so i fell in l-o-v-e with it.
wherever i go the spirit follows.
i feel it hold my hand
i feel it massage my shoulders
i feel its l-o-v-e giving me subtle back hugs through my days
the day you left i fell in l-o-v-e with a spirit.
the embodiment of your memory
the sweetness of its silence
and if the spirit leaves me, too?
at least i'll be prepared for the emptiness
Nov 15, 2019
Nov 15, 2019 at 10:20 AM UTC
today i woke up to a spirit.
i opened my eyes to nothingness, but i could feel the warmth radiating off of the dip in the bed.
at first i was dumbfounded
where were you? could you be the spirit?
and so i fell in l-o-v-e with it.
wherever i go the spirit follows.
i feel it hold my hand
i feel it massage my shoulders
i feel its l-o-v-e giving me subtle back hugs through my days
the day you left i fell in l-o-v-e with a spirit.
the embodiment of your memory
the sweetness of its silence
and if the spirit leaves me, too?
at least i'll be prepared for the emptiness
*it's about the fear of abandonment, part of the reason why they're unable to say "love"