(I want this poem
to voice a kind of intricacy
that is currently inside me)
I fear failure
I fear obstacles
I fear death
I fear that all of this
is just a way for me to learn
to settle and accept
I fear that God might whisper
for me to remain
abide
My depression
my troubles
my paranoia…
Have I not had enough?
Have I not moved on?
Have I not been caged–
What are you going to do to me?
Why can’t I make peace with
my anxiety?
Should I alter my perception?
Am I only trapped
in my mind?
This shouldn’t be an excuse
to make a run
‘tis not comprised of my exhaustion
but I’ve read
I’ve bled
and I’ve dreamed
and I know my departure
is to see
not to flee
Am I just convincing myself?
What is this coyness?
What is this pretense?
What are you going to do to me?
Why can’t I make peace with
my anxiety?
I beg you
and please, I plead
for you to remind me
The reasoning behind my leaving
is to see
and not to flee…
Mar 30, 2013
Mar 30, 2013 at 11:41 PM UTC
(I want this poem
to voice a kind of intricacy
that is currently inside me)
I fear failure
I fear obstacles
I fear death
I fear that all of this
is just a way for me to learn
to settle and accept
I fear that God might whisper
for me to remain
abide
My depression
my troubles
my paranoia…
Have I not had enough?
Have I not moved on?
Have I not been caged–
What are you going to do to me?
Why can’t I make peace with
my anxiety?
Should I alter my perception?
Am I only trapped
in my mind?
This shouldn’t be an excuse
to make a run
‘tis not comprised of my exhaustion
but I’ve read
I’ve bled
and I’ve dreamed
and I know my departure
is to see
not to flee
Am I just convincing myself?
What is this coyness?
What is this pretense?
What are you going to do to me?
Why can’t I make peace with
my anxiety?
I beg you
and please, I plead
for you to remind me
The reasoning behind my leaving
is to see
and not to flee…
I hope it's not going to get the best of me.
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